I always feel like ...somebody's watchin' me.

I'll admit ...
I've got a slight paranoia problem.
I know I haven't done anything, I just always feel like I've gotta keep a heads up in EVERY situation I'm in.  I've always gotta stay 10 steps ahead.
In my mind, every situation has it's potential to go wrong ...
Pessimism, paranoia, lack of faith ...whatever you'd like to call it.
I don't trust. I can't trust.  I probably won't ever trust someone completely ..because everrrrrrry sinnnnnngggggleeeee time I've let that guard down ...I'm disappointed.
Now, don't get me wrong ...I try to approach situations with an open mind, but damn that ...after so many times ...Something has GOT to give.
I'm always lookin' over my shoulder, watching, and waiting for the shit to hit the fan.

That's just how I roll, man.

I could be approaching it all wrong, but it has rarely failed me to act like this.

So I think I'm good ...for now.